// globular thinking//

fighting against a culture of glorified complacency, satisfied mediocrity, and ubiquitous apathy is a never-ending battle. and it’s one that shouldn’t be fought alone.

there’s a handful of people in my life that really inspire me. these are the people i cling to with a vengeance. because i know how seductive and simple it is to slide down a slope that leads to nowhere but self-satisfaction. and that’s somewhere i don’t ever want to be. 

maybe that’s why the girl at work last night told me i was more different from her than anyone she’d ever met in her life. maybe that’s why i can’t seem to find the same fulfillment in the vacuous lifestyle of so many of my peers. i have been given life and a passion to live it for something much bigger than the quenching of my hedonistic desires. 

but as i said, it’s a fight; a battle. the thing is, with this battle, the struggle is just as often in my own mind, with my own flesh, as it is against this culture of complacency. because, you see, i am a part of this culture, whether i like it or not. this is what i was born into, it’s my natural habitat. my snow-globe, if you will. no matter how hard i shake the globe, when i stop shaking, the snow all settles back to the same place it started. 

so that’s where i am right now. realizing that i’ve been shaking that glass paperweight by myself for a while now, wondering why every time i stop shaking the snow settles. what i need is to place myself back up against some other movers and shakers (sorry, i couldn’t resist) so that when i begin to slide down that slope, when my shaking arms get tired, they’re still there, stirring me on, agitating my waters. 

sometimes it’s the agitating ones that get through to you best. (ahem cablablah).